Its weird going out and seeing people from your past that you got close with or intimate with and remember when they were in your life as you think back and realize now they are not. I saw 2 girls that at one point were really into me 2night, when I think back I wonder what was I thinking, why did I not pursue it further, gosh Nikki is gorgeous... ( Read more... )

The strange thing about life is each day can be totally different. Different in the way you feel, the way you act, what you want....etc. Today i am in that I don't know mood. I don't know what I want, or how I feel. I don't know if the way I act is the right way, I just don't know.....

The cold gust that grazes my cheek
My eyes shut under the frozen feelings
Only the taste of the heart lingers
Only the idea of you remains
If only the beauty of love was remembered

It's not the way you look at me ( Read more... )

She freakin rocks ya'll, I hung out with her again and it was great. I don't know if i have a chance but i will tell you what SHE ROCKS! I just have to take it really slow.... I don't know how but i am going to take it really slow, but I have never felt this way about someone before in my life EVER, it is so weird. Telling myself to keep a level ( Read more... )

I was out in Belltown tonight and was attracted to zero girls in the mists of 100's of gorgeous babes... I talked to 3 of my friends who are Bar managers to try and get a special someone a job, and cracked jokes for like 3 hours. Its weird going to bars and not paying for anything. I am so syked that my cousin is going to be in town tomorrow and I ( Read more... )

The steps are those i thought i would never take
I cry thinking its to late
knowing i can't escape this truth
knowing that you don't care
to say goodbye on the day we met
to not say anything when I could say so much
its over, its gone
now leaving a broken heart and a broken bond
there is nothing left to do but say remember, and walk away

Today was judgement day for my heart. An old crush moving back into townand me hung out. It went as good as i could expect and I can only hope for the best. She is 100% the smartest, well rounded girl i have ever been attracted to. She is 10000000% gorgeous and if I hadn't been around the block since last we played on the corner I would have told ( Read more... )

Explain to me your outlet to the world ( Read more... )

So i wish i was a little better at being morbid. I just need a spark right now. I ended up spending the night with this girl who ended up being the worst kisser ever. Is it customary not to french kiss now a days or something? Gosh it was the most awful experience ever, i tried everything to avoid kissing, it was hard but i think she had no idea (i ( Read more... )