I am sorry

[tsb2004]

I am kind of at the end of my rope. I need to get through the year and then I hope to just disappear. I just feel like everything and everyone in Boston (including myself) is a lost cause. That no matter what I do or how hard I try nothing will ever change

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I know, I know

[tsb2004]

I was just in an awful mood being a drama queen. Now, im just a queen? Ugh, yeah mmhmm. Wana go dancing tomorrow???? I have a craving to DANCE.
<3's
T

[playitasitlays]

chin up, buddy-
When I find myself preoccupied with other people's opinions of me (positive or negative) I take it as a warning sign that I'm in a scene or job or whatever that I'm overqualified for. Those kind of thoughts are an indication of boredom- so maybe its not bad for you to be getting a little introverted right now. People are stupid and fickle and completely illogical. Did you know that 49% of Americans don't believe in the theory of evolution? If they can't take a rational position on something so obvious, their perceptions of you are probably equally irrational. Ie: It doesn't matter what people think of you. They are stupid and sad.

It's funny that you use the word "SCENE"

[tsb2004]

That is a very good point (evolution etc.). Thank you though, this did make me :-). I think I have been seeing this warning sign you speak of for like two years. I usually don't care what people think of me. I go out with plenty of eye-liner. Although, I do have to admit I do not like the stares. I don't know where I am going with this but, BOREDOM is very true.

It would really hurt me if you thought I didn't care.

[dynamitegirl]

I love you (duh), regardless of how often or not-so-often you feel like hanging out lately. Although some of the above might disagree with me, take all the alone time you need if it'll make you happier. I hope you understand how much you mean to your friends, though, and that more people care about you than you seem to think. My hope would be for you to just try and be aware that there isn't one specific way in which people demonstrate those feelings - sometimes affections aren't so clearly recognizable. In whatever you decide, I hope you start feeling more comfortable.

sexual harassment!

[tsb2004]

Maybe if you stopped tuching me in my no-no place I could maybe feel comfortable and, have a chance to lead somewhat of a normal life. GOD! But, for serious I feel comfortable. I was just bummed and being dramatic. I love you too (you know that).

xox
T

p.s kim <3's x-tina

[ofquietjoys]

im sorry to hear that . . . however i think that if you really step back and look at all the awesome times, i think that you will realize that you have a core of people that really do appreciate and love you. honestly i think friendship is alot of give and take , and realizing that everyone has their faults, but ultimately the good ways out the bad.
in any case i hope your feeling better
much love
-jus_

Re: p.s kim <3's x-tina

[tsb2004]

I got all those pictures printed (from that week at my brothers). It did remind me of how much fun we've all had together. That was mos def the best week I've had. We need to have one of those again. And, I do not want to hit you or cut you with a knife. I mean, I like it ruff but, I don't want to hurt anybody?
xox
T

so i know this is kinda late but...

[booapeboo]

i haven't checked the livejournal in quite some time now. anyway as always with your serious posts, i feel ya. as pessimistic as it sounds, there are people out there who really don't care, but on the other hand, there are those few that do, and that's what counts here...quality not quantity. over half the people i've met here in beantown i no longer communicate with on any type of level whatsoever, and then all of a sudden i see them out somewhere and i get bullshit hugs, kisses, and i miss you's, and wherehaveyoubeens? it's whatever, as long as they know they're fake, i'm happy. but basically we would all like to see you more and there is always that someone missing on the weekends and it's you!!! love, april

:-)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[tsb2004]

whoa, those people are fake? shit! heh, no but for serious...thank you, i miss you too. i feel like I havnt seen everybody in forever. I was just being a hermit blablabla and I miss playing all night...are all of my posts really that serious?
<33333s!!!!
-t