Wow it's been a while since I've done this... probably in part why I go so crazy, instead of writing down my feelings I keep them all bottled up inside ( Read more... )

I know that death is a part of life... but it sucks. Especially when its a young person, someone who has their whole lives ahead of them. Think of all the good and bad that they have yet to experience, will never experience, and it SUCKS. Dave Ellis died in a fire in his apartment at school last night and I just can't believe it. I didn't know ( Read more... )

ARRRRRRRRRRRG! bad night.

and to top it off my PARENTS are at the Bon Jovi concert. FOR FREE.

if josh was here right now i'd ring his neck. i dont care if he reads this

sure i have 4 walls around me and a roof over my head, but that doesnt mean i have a place to call home. with my parents moving, their house isnt it anymore for me... and never will be again. thats a part of growing up. but i learned this week that my apartment is NOT my home ( Read more... )

i've sorted out a lot of feelings this weekend. i've realized that some relationships between people will never change, and i guess i've also come to terms with that. i was hoping for change this time around, but we're both too much the same ( Read more... )

Funny (well, not really) how so much can change in your life in just over a week. I was just getting settled, starting to feel better from the usually beginning of the semester blues I get, getting over summer drama and adjusting to living with Josh... and then the world decides to IMPLODE on me. It wont stop either. Mom's doing better now (she ( Read more... )

On the drive home from work today, I realized as summer's wrapping up what a completely complete summer this has been for me. I came home and rekindled old high school friendships that had begun to fade. I had a great summer vacation with my family. I said goodbye to my brother, and was finally able to come to grips with his move westward. I ( Read more... )

Things are kinda sorta starting to come together in my mind...what I want, what I have, what to do... I'm still feeling like I jumped into an electric fence but it's getting better. Brandon needs to be a friend. I'm not attracted to him. I thought I was, but I'm not. At all. And for a while today I really TRIED to be attracted to him, because ( Read more... )

i feel bi-polar. not to diminish the seriousness of bi-polar disorder, but... i've been allllll over the place in the past week, and now i'm here ( Read more... )

Not going to Canadia or Tom Petty... the war is SO ON with the parents now ( Read more... )