this is my 100th entry. but sometimes good things come to an end.

new beginnings. aptopinicus

Sometimes I find it funny. My whole entire thought process, sometimes it just hits me like a tonne of bricks, just truly how neurotic I actually am. I sometimes think I am beyond crazy and that I need fixing. I sometimes think that the world around me is quickly coming to a complete halt as if a meteor is going to collide with the earth and upon ( Read more... )

I hate this time of the year. The idea of sitting here and spilling out all of the things I would like to change about myself, going on and on about how I need to improve this, quit that, lose this, work on that. I feel like I am sitting in a major evaluation and there is a huge list of weaknesses and the list of strengths remains empty ( Read more... )

I remember being at summer camp when I was a kid. The mornings you would be woken up, not by the sounds of birds chirping but by the sounds of various sized raindrops hitting the tin covered roof. The smell of dampness floated underneath the door and through the cracks around the windows. The room filled with a grey darkness that almost made it ( Read more... )

I want to be the Drew Barrymore to your Adam Sandler.

Merry Christmas.

i walk myself pretty much most places i go these days. i have never lived anywhere that i had to walk. when i grew up and was going to school we lived so far away from school we always took a bus; everyone for the most part took a bus, that's what you get when a main part of your high school's name includes rural. i kind of like being a walker ( Read more... )

i never used to believe that things happened for reasons or that there was such thing as fate, and to be completely honest i am not even completely sure that i do now. i find it funny because that was the one lesson my mom always tried to teach me, i can even hear her saying "all things happen for a reason, and you may not see it now but there was ( Read more... )

there was a guy on the bus tonight ( Read more... )

i saw a boy yesterday who put a skip in my step. he made me wish i had taken 5 extra minutes to put on make-up so i knew i was looking my best instead of 5 extra minutes of sleep, and i really kind of like my sleep. i haven't seen a smile that could make me melt in a really long time, and i definitely know that i haven't had someone brush up ( Read more... )

it was raining today. it rained the same cold wet rain that was mixed with the smells of the ocean water being disrupted, i remember it from when i was a kid. i remember the rain pounding so loudly on the window pane and the grey sky looking somewhat bright from the sun shining on the other side of it. i remember the way it felt hitting my face ( Read more... )