What is autism? To the scientific community, autism is a neurological disorder that affects 1-58 children. It makes them unable to understand social cues, have poor understanding of how the world works around them, allows them to get overstimulated and stressed out in high sensory situations. It can cause people to not want to be touched or held ( Read more... )

There's a few things that stir in my mind, and I really feel like getting them down in writing, but I don't feel like going through the slog of facebook and creating enemies of friends and family due to their unholy allegiance to superficial things, so I've decided to come on here. This is the place I feel I can yell as loud as I want with no one ( Read more... )

It's a week away from Labat and Ashleys Wedding, the one thing I promised when I left that I wouldn't miss...and guess what...I'm gonna miss it. I missed my Nephews birth, I've missed years with all of my godchildren, I've missed Ms Kathy's funeral, I've just missed a whole lot of stuff. I really think this one hits the hardest because I was so ( Read more... )

I've grown to just, not really feel anything. I had my phase where I was very depressed for a while, but now, I just..I feel nothing. I'm not happy, I'm not sad, just nothing. The truly sad part, is I'm sad about my lack of feelings. I see things online about people I care about deeply, and I'm sad that I haven't talked to them, but lord knows ( Read more... )

I'm lonely, there's literally no one here I connect with. I've tried to connect with different people, in different ways, but it's not the same, and few if anyone can really grasp my past. I mean, I can't catch a break to find people who understand me in so many aspects. Unless you have a child with a disability, you don't understand what I go ( Read more... )

For the most part, I don't feel sadness constantly, or really happy, I feel really numb for the most part. I've limited my drinking, havent taken anti-depressants in like 2 months, and instead of feeling one way or another, I just feel like, nothing honestly. I don't know just really catch myself mostly numb a lot, and I'm really not sure if that ( Read more... )

So, first off, I want to preface this, as I'm typing, my nephew is coming into existence and I'm eternally happy for my brother and sister, they will be amazing parents and Calvin will drive them crazy in only the most awesome ways imaginable, what an amazing way to celebrate Fathers Day ( Read more... )

I wonder who I am now. Between the anti-depressants and nightly alcoholic pacifier, I don't know where I'm going or who I am. I've made the leap here, and now I feel like I jumped on a ledge with no one one. Sheree desperately wants another child and I look around our meager existence and wonder how we could possibly make it work. I mean, I ( Read more... )

So, I've found a bit of a spiritual revival in Carolina, atleast, I've attempted to. I feel a lot better being a christian than I have in years, the only problem that I have is I feel like one thing that's emphasized is a lot of my past life is full of sin. I get it, we're all sinners, it's all good. That's pretty much the message any church you ( Read more... )

So, since I last updated, I got a job, moved to charlotte, and have been working here for 6 months. It's been up and down. First with the up. I finally can support my family fully on my own. While it's not a glamorous life, in fact, it's less glamorous than I had back home, I do take care of everything I need on my own. I'm finally feeling ( Read more... )