stolen from brians LJ ( Read more... )

i came back from going out.

having 2 small glasses of wine.

smoking a ciggarette outside alone.

watching the end fire and flare up.

it feels so good and really bad at the same time.

how do i justify the wine being gone?

bad day at work...or alcoholism. haha.

not sure yet but we'll cross that bridge when it comes to i guess.

work stresses me out. i hope i'm just getting my period.

i'm tired.

thank g-d i have off tomorrow.

joel moves back tomorrow. poor guy. poor me! :-P

um um. yeah i dunno. i'm so wicked tired. i just can't even think. do i even have anything to say? not sure...okay peace outtt.

so i've really psyched myself out this time ( Read more... )

haha omg my heart is beating soo fast!!

<3

the best part of my nights at effin (besides actually being there) is driving home with the windows all the way down, blasting music and smoking a ciggybutt. judge if you will, but its totally relaxing on many levels ( Read more... )

back in NY ( Read more... )

TUGucCigrRL83: i miss you dood.. you and your racist jokes
Nimrod335: i hate black people so much

he's so kidding. and i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!

although i'm very flattered, if you had succeeded in reading my entire profile, you'd see the section where it says i'm a HOMO.

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From: EricDate: Jul 9, 2005 10:07 PM ( Read more... )

i feel really lonely right now..relationship wise

but i know i have too much of my own shit to deal with before i could be in a relationship. not like anyone's offering.

but i could use the accompanyment of someone else.

someone else to care about me and take care of me.

but i have to take care of me first.