My break has been filled with too much death, a fair number of smiles and many reunions. I miss KU people, but Im never too old to be home. Happy New Year to everyone!

I am starting to wonder why I came to and stayed at KU. Last night I sat and let my roomate punch me, kick me and pull out my hair and all I could do is cry and wonder why I have let things like this go on so much in my life. I should have taken action against the abuse that I have recieved in this room both physically and emotionally and now I am ( Read more... )

I am cheap: my most recent xanga entry explains how I feel.

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I started two perfectly feasible storylines today. I stopped to write poetry which in turn transformed into page after page of asinine philosophy. I am no Hippocrates and yet the honesty in this statement distresses me. I am only writing this entry to fill the void of what is currently nothing. Ive listened to far too much Bach and read far too ( Read more... )

A stoic doorknob. Through an arm sensations of restlessness shiver. A turn. a graying silhouette. an expectation. Hell, I had it all yesterday, I knew leisure activity was a regrettable decision. It was just a doorknob, never a hand. It is cold and empty. It is empty. I am empty ( Read more... )

I have never been this unhappy in my life. I don't even know how to hope anymore. People in general are extremely hurtful and it makes me question existence in a whole. The news that I found out last night made my already deteriorating spirit die completely. Thank God for Jim, Dana and literary escapes.

Oh my Lord. My room has way way too much fun! NO... NO...NO, THEY'RE ALL GONNA LAUGH AT YOU!!!! Adam Sandler is fucking hilarious. Last night Jim, LaTisha and I participated in some unusual activities and involved a boy from down the hall online. Lets just say it worked to my advantage ( Read more... )

If I had ever wanted to cry out of necessity, this would be the time. Don't ask me why, because this feeling has no logic. Only guilt and a slightly unsubstantial amount of reasoning ( Read more... )

Disclaimer: This will never replace my xanga ( Read more... )