Ignorant Bliss

[tungsten]

I had a conversation a few months ago with my sister in which we discussed PTSD. I told her a bit about what I had experienced after our Mom died. She was much more focussed on the present though. She has been seeing counselors about marriage issues and was asked PTSD related questions. She half way asked me and half way challenged me about "

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[evathedefiler]

You are not broken, Joel. I too struggle with maintaining the view that I am "normal". I think it's important to remember that everyone struggles with effects from past experiences or physical/biological issues. The public facade that people show, stable well adjusted la di da, is just that, a public facade. Everyone has something and that makes it pretty damn normal. The internal experience of being human is, by our very nature, complicated. We remember, regret, over analyse, avoid, forget. The externals are simple; work, make money, relate to other people, eat, sleep, play.

Even saying something is simple, is not to say it is easy. Don't be too hard on yourself and go get a hug.

[sine]

you aren't broken beyond repair.

the way to change things is to notice them when you're in the middle and change what you're doing. that sounds like what you're starting to do. it's hard and sometimes discouraging, but i think you're capable of it. be gentle with yourself.