maybe one day i'll wake up & feel loved all over again.

it's weird how things can change right in front of your eyes, especially when you've been waiting for it for years.i guess you just get stunned when you realize what's happening, but it seems forever, but really, its all so quick. ive never met a more nauseatingly in love couple in my life. they seem so happy...i guess i've never felt the way it ( Read more... )

going to cali in 2 days. god, i really need to get out of the house and experience life. today has been nice & relaxing..and stressful at the same time. my mom has just been bitching all day long. i understand that she may be stressed, but really bring the negativity towards me is not solving anything. ughhhh. work tomorrow all day & then i'm ( Read more... )

today was such a dragggg. work was long & brutal. but i survived, then i went out to lunch with my mom at olive garden. we got tiramisu for dessert, sooo yummy. i felt like throwing up afterwards because i was sooooo full! i'm just so drained. i cannot wait for my vacation to Cali! soooo neeeded. i've just been stressin' lately, ahhh. tomorrow i'm ( Read more... )

so yesterday was quite eventful. and by eventful, it had it's ups & downs. i woke up at 7am for jury duty only to sit in a room for an hour & then get dismissed. so i started off my day really early & i liked it, then i went up to ocean city for the day to hang out & go on the beach with erik. i was backing out of a tight parking lot (i cant ( Read more... )

i have jury duty tomorrow morning. ughhh fuck. seriously, i just want to get away. i can't believe i still have a fucking curfew. i'm 19, i live at home, & i have a curfew. what is wrong with this picture?? ugh. i want to grow up. but it's hard when my parents are holding me back. i want to start my life, but it's hard when i have to stay in ( Read more... )

i'm not doing this for the sake of updating, or for livejournal, or for anyone. i'm doing this for me. i'm doing this for what i have always been & have forgotten. i don't have a place where i can really, truly express my thoughts & openly about. i just want that security again where i can express my every thought & at the same time have it locked ( Read more... )

i'm absolutely ready to leave this town. i cannot wait for what lies ahead of me. i'm so fucking over everything. only 2 and a half more months. i love the people in my life that have helped me pass everything by...i feel like i cant be real to MYSELF anymore..i can't be me. i'm always surrounded by people and i just want to be me like tonight..it' ( Read more... )

lately, i just cant ever find the time to write anymore...or when i do, i dont have the desire to. :( today i blazed with my friend and went to go see "the other boleyn girl" it was pretty good, it was interesting.


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Talk to me now
Why do you run from me
Walk up to me
Like we've never met
Break into me
I need you more than you know.