too much work and no reward. i honestly think the whole band thing is going nowhere and we're getting ahead of ourselves. they all dream to much and don't actually work on anything. It's so fucking annoying, i'll say something like "u guys should prepare some new licks for next practice together" and all i get is excuses about y it isnt possible. ( Read more... )

well, i guess im feeling ok right now. i took a long walk and decided to do sumthing nice for someone so i walked like 2 miles to target and bought a cd that my mom asked me to download. then on the way back as i was passing through Tons' neighborhood he pulled up out of nowhere, so i hung out with him for awhile. Then, he asked me if i wanted a ( Read more... )

well, friday i sent a message to like half of my school thinking that it would only work inside the room i was in... it didnt say anything in particular that anyone should find offensive and it wasnt intentional or malicious so, hopefully, ill get off with a detention or saturday school. Other than that, friday was a slow and horrible school day ( Read more... )

i had a horrible day up until jordan fell off of his bike. going to meditate for as long as i can, i need to clear my mind of any problems and just let go for a little bit. heh, raheel fell too.

Well, me and John made the decision to leave the band and attempt to start our own thing, after many conflicted hours of thought... we're not sure what it will sound like, but me and john play well together so it doesnt really matter, for now, we're gunna try out some people... John knows a guy who will play bass for us and can do clean vocals. The ( Read more... )

i just came back from the movies, i guess it was a good escape from todays earlier turmoil. It was pouring when i got off the bus from school and my mom wasnt home so i had to stand in the pouring rain for half an hour until that she decided to come home, of course, not b4 stopping at dunkin donuts to get her fucking coffee while im freezing in the ( Read more... )

Im bored... just finished doing a bunch of work for fucking english class, if i dont get an A ill be really pissed off. I had to write a god damn research paper on John Steinbeck, and a poem for a literary fair. Havn't seen Nick Garrity in ages, but i hear he's still manwhoring as usual, i believed its reaching about 9 girls now... Fed got in a ( Read more... )

listening to music.... thinking about how much time ive wasted listening to music and thinking, which is indeed a contradiction. I've also realized how much time ive wasted thinking about unimportant things, I should focus more on school and my music... but where is my motivation ( Read more... )

Today was pretty boring... cant wait till winter break. Bought "Mechanical Animals" cd today.... its pretty fuckin good, his best in my opinion. I must go, but i leave you with a wonderful quote : "I'm not someone who doesn't respect religion, but I don't care for the way religion is used to manipulate people," Manson said. "We create our own gods ( Read more... )

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