I just had sex with a guy who is 10 years older than me... It wasn't great but it was nice and I remebered what it is I miss so much when having sex with the kid. The time you spend in bed afterwards talking about life and music and just...things. It's always as if when you have had sex there are no secrets between you. You get to see so deeply ( Read more... )

Ok, it's 7 pm and no call... I wonder if I'm being stood up. That would be ridiculus after all my nervousness. Sure I know he has a different job but "after work" for me is 5 or possibly 6 pm.

I'm starting to feel like Bridget Jones. Soon I'll start counting carbs here or something...

Jesus...

Please please PLEASE remind me to never ever EVER say yes to a date again. I'm so nervous I think I'll have to go and throw up. Why on earth does this make me so nervous? He isn't even important is he?

The days of my life are starting to be boringly similar...

I'm tired cos I had sex with the kid last night. I have too much to do at work and thus get nothing done instead. I feel fat and ugly.

I have the date tonight. With the diver you know. I just realised I have never been on an actual date like this before. I have dated people I have met on ( Read more... )

OH! MY! GOD!

The diver just asked me out on a date... We haven't even talked. Just sent text messages a couple of times. I don't even remmeber what he looked like...I'm just so sure that he wasn't my type whatsoever. He is OLD (probably at least 35 ;) and short and... Oh God!

I'm so nervous I can't think straight.

Other news? My friend made a pass ( Read more... )

I am so unbelievebly tired it's not funny in any way. It's like my head is full of some soft material that won't let any thoughts or emotions through. I'm just totally blank. I wake up in the morning and there is no reason at all for me to get up. My therapist told me a stiry that I recognise all too well about a woman who could sit for hours and ( Read more... )

I slept late this morning. I had the weirdest dream. Or maybe not weird but unexpected...or... I don't know. I told you Paul quit work Friday right? Now he's on a vacation and won't be home for at least 2-3 weeks. And I can't stop thinking about him. It's so strange... And tonight I dreamed about kissing him and it was so good. I kept seeing his ( Read more... )

I just read your post nora1980

Are you ok? What happened? Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
I'm so sorry if your life is treating you bad right now and I think about you and hope things will be better.
*sending 1000 hugs*

I'm awake. I think I'm alive. Last night was good I think. A tiny bit blurry I have to admit. Lots of wanting to fall asleep in someones garden on my way home. Grass is so soft and smells good... Though it rained all night so it probably wouldn't have been a good idea.

Right now I'm sitting in Jonas living room listening to him and Robert ( Read more... )

The evening starts here. I'm on my way to get so incredibly drunk I doubt I'll even wake up tomorrow. I'll see you all Sunday... if I'm lucky.