Its interesting how that one person who meant the world to you... who you would give up and did give up everything for could be the reason that your life is going so horribly wrong. In my case i finally got that person out of my life and while it was hard i have to admit that i was the better person in this situation. i mean come on how childish ( Read more... )

I find it funny that im not the only one that turns to LJ during a fight as a "secret getaway". but yea... i find it so weird that less than 4 days ago we were sitting around joking about "the american dream" you know getting married, having kids and living a "normal" life... seriously though what is a "normal" life... to me its living your life ( Read more... )

let me set a scene for you.... i had just gotten back from lunch and i was talking to angel. i told him bout how i just got a girlfreind a few min before... of cource his first question was how long i had known her? hah well to tell you the truth i met her 3hrs before then... i was working my sales at frys and she came up to me and asked me if i ( Read more... )

as everyone knows i love it out here.... my life is great..... i honestly couldnt ask for much more than what i have.... the only thing that is getting to me is why im out here.... dont get me wrong i dont regret moving here.. its just i feel that my motivation was for all the wrong reason.... when i came up with the idea i was heart broken.... i ( Read more... )

everyday we say im going home.... but really what is home.... to me its somewhere you can go to unwind... somewhere free of stress.... somewhere you love..... you know i love it out here in san jose.... when in llano i was at my whits end... i will honestly say that one more than one occation i actually tried to comit suicide.... you know i can now ( Read more... )

this is the true reason behind my decission..... because i promised i wouldnt tell the person about the phone call no names will be used. ok so wed night i was relaxing watchin some star trek and the phone rings... im the only one here so i go to awnser it. i look at the caller id and its a name i recognize and know it would be for me. so i awnser ( Read more... )

well getting here was fun..... lemmie put you thru the short version..... so i left llano and was doing good....rejoicing and jamming for quite a few hours... i got to el paso and knoticed that if i hit the gas my truck didnt accelerate. so i pulled over and found out that i was very low on transmission fluid.... ok so i bought so... that fixed it ( Read more... )

just so everyone knows im finally in san jose even tho i am 5 days late. well ill explain everything tommarow right now im really tired.... ill talk to all ya later

 You’re chasing Amy.

Why don’t you shut up? Jesus! Always yap, yap, yapping all the time. Give me a fucking headache. I went through something like what you’re going through. Years ago. Same kind of thing with a girl named Amy.

So there’s me an Amy, and we’re all inseparable, right? Just big time in ( Read more... )

*sighs* never have i felt so lonely as i do right now.... granted yes i have been single durring many holidays but there is something diffrent about this time... i dont know what it is but for some reason im uber lonely and depressed.... i heard a country song today that the main refrain was something like "all i want for christmas is a kiss" or ( Read more... )