my feet are cold and I am so tired. I usually would put socks on but the answer to this does'nt seem that easy. I stay up late reading Thomas Merton and this is what happens when I fall in love. It has to do with books and god. It is a spiritual experience and I feel so insane that I cannot talk to anyone accept the person I am falling in love with ( Read more... )

I am trying really hard not to write in this journal, how in love I am. I am in love with potential and the fact I never thought I would have so much in common with a person. The fact I can admire someone so much. He takes that admiration and holds it well. Love that is returned. I am not done writing, but lately my words are kept close, between us ( Read more... )

Tomorow I have to learn how to make paper because I now have a pen pal in connecticut that is so different and special that I cannot bear the thought of sending him paper made by anyone but myself. When certain things are so beautiful I lack the ability to express them in any way. And if I did it would take away from the honesty, that can only be ( Read more... )

My face hurts from smiling. Tonight was the baby shower I pretended to plan for my boss. I use to be uptight about things but it seemed my non worrying paid off and it was all about the people not the food. I hate when people stress out about things going wrong but I guess that is because some people actually plan things before the day of ( Read more... )

I have been writing a thirty one year old man in conneticut really long letters and he is making me a mixed cd. He is about to spend time in the monestary, I never thought I would meet someone like this. Is this how life is supposed to work? I went from dating an atheist and being called joan of arc. To feeling like a dirty sinner and being ( Read more... )

I have so many highs and lows in my life. For example this morning I went for a three mile run and then I drank a beer, ate brownies, a cookie, and icecream. Then I went to work and ate an apple and chicken soup. At lunch I pretended I was gandhi and that I was beginning a fast and only eating an apple and drinking water because I felt sick from my ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night i was walking along the side of the road listening to old cassette tapes of your voice like I would npr. Listening closely to the accents and dialect, thinking I hear your voice within the self pretentious snoot and swagger located in the secretiveness of this voice whispering off opinions as fact, humor, and threats to my ( Read more... )

i got in a mini car wreck on the way home from the gym. my friend was driving her new jeep which is standard and she is a little rusty, some guy hit us from the back. I decided to throw a suprise birthday party for my brother. This should be interesting. I bought a large assortment of beer and will make hamburgers, brownies, cookies, and guacamole ( Read more... )

singing serious love songs really badly is what valentines day is about. i finally deleted my best friends singing messages after laughing for the forth time ( Read more... )

no bra knowing gravity is in no competition with what is holding me back. walking through the grocery store carrying ground turkey, one large tomato, 2 containers of blueberry yogurt, and two womens protein bars. dirty day off work havent showered in 3 days, hair. have not eaten since the last margarita. dog sitting for a pet with an allergic ( Read more... )