i want to thrive off the leaves and branches and live within the veins of a tree shining in the moonlight and soaking up the sun. I want to be mother nature and change with the seasons. I want to be strong and steady and hold my ground. I want to sound like pleasant chatter in the cold wind and warm embraces behind the shades. I want to live inside ( Read more... )

I never do or say what I feel I am supposed to do. When people are talking I start staring at an empty table and squishing cheese in my fingertips and drinking wine too quickly. I have secrets that I hide everywhere and I do not try to be so mysterious but I hide secrets everywhere. And I drive down the dark highways eyeing the center line and I ( Read more... )

i have been wearing these white fuzzy earmuffs around the house and talking way too loud ( Read more... )

my parents are so weird. my mom called and just started giving her location the intersection on old highway something or other, apparently she and dad are coming to visit and very nearby. I tell her I am not at home but she ignores me and tells me that is where she will be, at my house. Interesting I knew I had a grounded tinge of nervousness after ( Read more... )

hitchhiker pickup, and hobo love ( Read more... )

If I plan ahead I will be 24 when I go to Germany and 25 when I come back. If I go to san antonio tommorow my hair will get dyed and i will have less greys. I really have not planned for anything so much in advance accept every conversation. but it sounds good to have done so much before the age of 25 because 25 years scares me more than 24. I have ( Read more... )

I overthink everything and it is running and turning circles in my head and if you dont listen quick, my heart is going to beat out of my chest, and my mouth becomes dry if you look at me like that. I want to close my eyes and dance and scream, play hide and seek among the stars. Lets not sleep tonight our hearts need to much rest.

I am looking into being a nanny/aupair. It seems like something I would like. I want to start in the united states maybe in california and save money living for free and seeing how it works. What appeals to me is the whole stability, travel, and becoming close to a family. If it is something I like I would go abroad and go to language school in ( Read more... )

i got a gym membership for any 24 hr fitness in the city. now i have a new place to take showers and stare at myself in mirrors. next week i meet with a lady at a job placement office. I hope to get a really boring job in which i wear the same boring things and save money until i cringe with boredom. I thought of something like this today while I ( Read more... )

i am tired of being dramatic about everything. I apoligized to my cell phone this evening for the lack of interesting conversations. I feel like I have dissapointed my technology. I really dont keep up with anything. I have really just been wanting to spend slow long days scanning rows of books in the library and reading the beginnings and ends. My ( Read more... )