my right eye hurts. it feels as if it has been temporarily injured or scratched. I hate contacts and glasses and not being able to see perfectly. This small injury seems to justify strings of complaints for the day. I missed breakfast and drank too much caffeine. I really want my own room without loneliness, and music as loud as I like, the ( Read more... )

it is snowing. my sister was pulling out all the old winter stuff. And when I say old i mean old. our family saves everything and this is where my interest in clothes and pack rattiness stems from. I have two new wool skirt from australia. so i have put on pants, legwarmers, a skirt, and two layers as well as scarf, jacket, and hat to run the ( Read more... )

lately i am not keeping up with anything. I am learning that coffee is something that makes me a better person. Boredom causes me to forget to think what I am thinking about. I do really stupid things like spitting on my brothers head from the bed above. I have not been doing laundry and buying too many clothes so I had an open trunk show and had a ( Read more... )

i totally hit on a customer at work really smooth, on an accident. But I think I must subconsciously do this a lot and a part of my personality must be surfacing with age, lack of maleness in my life, and a somewhat unchallenging work environment. I said I needed to fill out his paper work and he asked if I 'needed his new address' and I said 'no ( Read more... )

i keep trying to self educate and brain wash myself. wealth is substance, affluence is gloss. save money=less work. But it is really hard because i dont even want any belongings but i have allready given in, and i am highly obsessive. I wish I was unburdened by most of my obsessions, I am thinking of starting a cult and dressing my members like me ( Read more... )

my home is small crowded and messy. full of years of indecision piled up into dirty mountains of clothes. i took out the trash to the dumptster but first i took off my flamboyant flowered top so as not to cause any unneeded attention from neighbors. my television doesnt work and it has a coating of dust and the words no trabajo spelled out across ( Read more... )

truth be told. i do relate male relationships to that of my father. I think that is why I do not have many and if i have had one or begin one I find myself highly competitive and jealous especially when I think I am not being loved or respected ( Read more... )

i went to a bar with a secret passage way leading to another bar. One of the bartenders was a young guy about to tak his SAT's he said he lived up stairs and had a fish ranch. I asked him many questions that most people wouldnt answer, but he was near passing out. He lead me into the other bar while I followed his frizzy dishwater pony tail. The ( Read more... )

i am so.. t i r e d ( Read more... )

what am i working on now, what books lay under my bed, what person lays by my side, and who do i toast with for a glass of wine. I find myself resting my lazy drunken eyes across the table gazing intently, i stumble into my thoughts, and collapse. All this wandering and many drinks later, all I want is one thing. Everything seems to dance inside me ( Read more... )