If only this were true...

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I hate having all my friends so far away from me. I hate having everyone I care so much about be so far away that I can't even live a day without wishing they were here. I miss everyone, not just those who are deployed. Mostly, I miss my girls...because without them I am nothing. And I have learned this the hard way. The only people who are here to ( Read more... )

So this will be short...because I don't know if I have it in me to update everything I want to update right now. I spent 5 weeks in Europe and a week in California. Had a great time. Alan and those guys have been gone for almost three months now. I still miss Alan just as much as I did when he first left and love him just as much if not more. He ( Read more... )

So I can't sleep. I just can't. My mind is running with so many different things right now that I just can't handle it all. I'm worried about my grades...because if I don't get at least over a C average I won't be coming back next year...and my folks want a B average at least. FUCK me. Then I'm worried about the boys in Iraq and Afghanistan. I want ( Read more... )

Long before the Army guys left for afghanistan, Jodi and I had planned on getting trashed the night they left. To help us cope and get over them leaving. So that we wouldn't feel the pain quite as much. Well, Thursday night we did that. I got completely trashed. And Jodi was drunk. We went to Zanzibar with Patty, Ashleigh, Crissy, and Aji. We ( Read more... )

My goodness...What a weird month it has been. Good, bad, and all of the above. Let's see...Alan got home from leave and proceeded to pick me up and hang out with me. Ummmmm....Lots of hanging out with the Army guys since it was their last month here. Finally accepted the fact that I'm in love with Alan...and told him. And surprisingly he said the ( Read more... )

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So this is probably the longest it's ever been since I've updated...and this is such an overdue update...So much has gone on since the past update that I'm not even sure I can get it all explained and put out here...but I'm going to try. For everyone's sanity...including my own ( Read more... )

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