Candles Warmth ( Read more... )

I was going to post here..and it was emotional..but I'd rather do it in GJ. So Jess..read there..please.

I feel...overwhelmed...ask me why on the phone, a few already know...

I WANT TO REBEL
I WANT TO BE NAUGHTY
I WANT TO BE DIRRTY
I WANT TO JUST DO SOMEONE
I WANT TO BE INSANE
I WANT TO BE FREE
I WANT TO BE THE WILD ME

Emotional roller coaster is on a downward dive into a mangy twist. I feel like poopy. *crys* This sucks..I hate slipping into this mode..you know? It's when I start relaying on things I've done..or haven't done..or well DONE...GOD I am very stupid....you know that? Ugh...*slaps herself* I am very very dumb..what have I done?

Damnit I don't feel so hott. I just feel well....ugh. Everything I own or have physically or emotionally is a disaster..and everything I do refelects that..It's all hard to change. But change is what got me this far, and I have to keep changing morphing into someone else. Someone in control someone who..well...is almost perfect..but now..modestly ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm feeling. I wanna be happy, And I'm really trying..I really am. And I can for a while ya know. But after a while my mind just..wants to wander. It's not fair to me or anyone else. So I'm just going to not think about it aloud and hope it goes away. There is tons on my mind, and I'm ready to vent. Or at least get it off my chest ( Read more... )

The world is a canvas ( Read more... )

I'm scared. I'm dead scared. I'm to the point I CANNOT sleep. I'm afraid today would be my last day as his 'girlfriend'...if you can call it that. I don't want tomorrow to come, I dread the night. It's at night when I ache the most. My stitching to my broken heart busts wide open and I bleed..I cry miserably until my head pounds with dehydration. ( Read more... )

Hello ( Read more... )