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Lately I've been making my own little Utopia in my head. It helps me get away from the shit of reality. School, and bitchy teachers who hate me. Its coming along quite well. I like to lay in bed and just imagine how wonderful things could really be, but alas my Utopia is and will forever be just a dream. How's that for a buzz kill ( Read more... )

Things have been going okay I suppose. No real complaints. Just the usual bitching. Of course I could always find something to be pissed about, but what fun would that be? Not much at all really, to tell the absolute truth. This music could make you angry though. I love angry music. Which reminds me... need some Slipknot CDs ( Read more... )

Wow maybe I should lose sleep more often! I'm in a pretty good mood right now. Maybe its also because I mom might let me go to the St. Pats parade tomorrow. So much fun ( Read more... )

I'm actually enjoying today. I feel content with my surrounding for once. Not pressured or threatend in any shape or form. How wonderful. Things are gettig better with my life and that pleases me beyond reason. I'm slowly gaining my mother's trust back and pushing my step dad farther away. I'm not sure if thats good or bad, but the less I talk to ( Read more... )

Lora always said this song reminded her of me.This song and Home. I think she's right. You guys should look up these lyrics sometime. They're pretty good songs I think ( Read more... )

I absolutely love this song. It kind of makes me wonder how easy it might be for someone to just not care about all the shit they've done or gone through. Of course, its easier to just not care then it is to actually worry about things. Oh well, my random thoughts of the day ( Read more... )

Well today was interesting. Course everyday is interesting in some way am I correct? I joined Xanga.com today. It seems fun. The only thing is I'll be updating two journals now. Although this one is pissing me off some. I don't know whats wrong with my background. Oh well. I'll talk to Lora and see if she'll help me with it. I kind of want to ( Read more... )

I'm sick once again. How pleasent. I have to get my tonsals taken out which should just be so much fun. I went to the doctor yesterday and found out I have strep throat. This is the second time in the past month and a half that I've have a throat infection. I'm not happy, no sir. I also found out I'm losing weight...again. I guess thats okay. I ( Read more... )

Today was... interesting. Nothing bad happend, I just found myself thinking about things I normally push make into the darkness of my mind. Things like my brother's death, my real father, and just basically all the things that made me as twisted and disturbed as I am. I tend to not let people see me when I'm like this only because I don't feel like ( Read more... )