who gave me this plan ? why do i have to stick to it, what ever i do i feel like theres none there to support me. Things seem to go right for a few hours and then they can turn around and everything is black. I want more of those happy hours, I am sick and tired of everyone else getting more than me. Someone give me a break and let me be happy.

i feel like im going to puke for some reason!...maybe it was somthing i ate..my tummy just feels so rotten and i cant get thoughts of him out of my head!!!! why oh why me. Thank god i dont have to face him. Only one thing now will make me feel better...drugs drugs and more drugs give me the pain killers. ok getting sleepy now time to lie on couch.. ( Read more... )

Omg the nerve of some people in this world....i honestly thought people had some kind of social skill that enables them to start a friendly converstaion with someone they know. oh well i can not let these people get me down. Anyway i had anrite day today , things went well and everything kind of worked its self out. Im starting my music all over ( Read more... )

now i know why mornings are called that....i am now "morning" the loss of sleep. This weekend was a killer and i still have not recovered and its tuesday! i am now waiting for my mother who is still in her dressing gown to take me to uni, when will i ever drive...i need my licence..and then i need a car..but first of all i need a job. Am i that ( Read more... )

Welcome to my first ever entry, my life is crazy and its to risky to write things down in an actual book and no one i know will find my thoughts on here. So enjoy...


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