Never make someone a priority when they only make you an option.

[twitchyq]

I am so desperate to be loved again that it clouds my judgment and makes me act crazy

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[princessem]

uh oh!

you will be loved by someone, someone who is perfect for you and at the right time... but he is not that guy. i think you'll only get hurt if this keeps going, unfortunately :(

have you talked it over more yet?

[princessem]

AND also you are already loved and noticed by many others, i.e. me and all your other friends! just in a different way, hehe.

do you watch 30 rock? i forget. i love that bit about a single woman's biggest fear being choking to death alone in her own apartment.. lol!

[twitchyq]

hahaha, that's EXACTLY what I was thinking about.

[twitchyq]

You're preaching to the choir. I know he's bad for me in the long run, but he makes me feel soooo good sometimes too. I know I'll get to a point where I lose it and give him the ultimatum, but I think I'll wait a bit longer.... Totally accepting I will get hurt, but hopefully I'll be able to handle it if I know I will.

[szakaib]

I know the insecurities you mean, but you have no reason to have them--tons of people love you (me included!). It sounds like this dude isn't worth your time. You deserve way better, but entering shitty situations like this almost definitely won't get you that. Call me sometime if you want to vent :)

[twitchyq]

Thank you, Sue. I will definitely take you up on that if I need to. I'm gonna ride it out a bit longer until I really get to the breaking point. Probably not the smartest, but I know that at least.