never before have i felt so alone and worthless

I don't remember the last time I felt like I needed to write something. It's been a while ( Read more... )

Once upon a time, when I wasn't on any medication, I traveled the state talking to large groups of strangers. It did not bother me at all. I loved it, actually. I gained a lot of respect from all sorts of folks from all over. It was coupled with a supervisor who constantly crushed my self-esteem ( Read more... )

What is left for me to fight for?
Everyone's gone now.

I'm going to Manchester, NH tonight. The Spring Hill Suites near the airport.

I don't know why I even care about writing this down. I guess I don't.

I'm losing my mind.

my memories.
my self-esteem.
my self-awareness.
my dreams.

it's fucking shitty.

i'm going to puke some more.

So much puking for so little drinking...

losing my mind again ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE THE MONTH OF APRIL.
FUCK.

Dudes, this is some anachronistic type stuff.

Let's all implode the network. Start fresh. Monkey versus Robot. Fight Club.

Bring the heat. Or lose the human.

I may be losing my mind.
Or maybe I'm fixing it.
Too soon to tell.
But I'm making changes. I think they're good ones.
What I really need to start doing is exercising. I have sat on my ass far too much recently. Maybe I should look into a gym membership. Maybe.

I've decided to quit facebook. For a bit. I'll be back soon enough, I'm sure. But for now I'm done ( Read more... )