i've started making artz again. i forgot how therapeutic and awesome it is. playing guitar again, too. maybe i'm slowing coming out of my hole?

i've been hanging out with a cool kid from work. i realized yesterday that one of the reasons i like hanging out with him so much is that he's new. what i mean is, even though we've known each other for a ( Read more... )

i've really been missing my mom lately. i feel like in the past few weeks things have really started hitting me. i really really really miss her. my friends don't really understand how much this hurts, you know? i mean, how can they? my mom and i would call each other at least 5 times a day, easy. she was my absolute best friend and now that she's ( Read more... )

today my brother and i finished douching out my mom's house in milwaukie. it's so fucking SAD to go through someone's things that had taken them a life time to collect, and either put it in the garage sale pile or the trash pile. UGH.

we kept finding things she had written on and finally today i found something she wrote to me. instant heartbreak ( Read more... )

decade meme wheeeee ( Read more... )

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today was my mom's funeral ( Read more... )

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Andy hasn't spoken to me since Monday. Not that his silent treatment is new to me; I just thought he'd give it up since mom isn't well. Do you know how awkward it is to be in the same house as someone who won't talk to you?

What am I supposed to do?

i'm really lucky to have a job that's gives me indefinite family leave after working there just shy of six months. on top of that, my boss has been checking in with me from time to time to see how i'm holding up ( Read more... )

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