it's been so long since i've written in here ( Read more... )

everything is frustrating and miserable.

i feel like such utter crap. and nothing i try to do will make it better.

in the end i just want to leave bc...........i dont know.

i feel like i have nothing left here. but if i leave, what will i have anywhere else?

i miss writing.

my gramma spent new years alone.

that breaks and breaks and breaks my heart.

at some point i stopped breathing. and i want more then anything to begin again.

you make me feel really bad about myself.

i dont know what to do...............

New Stamps Misspell 'Motorcycle ( Read more... )

that when we're with a bunch of people you come close to ignoring me?

i want to go to santiago's dinner.........but im tired. and i have work to do.

tttttttttttttttttooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

it's horrible. but i feel so bad about my self unless i have constant reassurance that ppl care about me. and that's so horribly pathetic. but it's true. i just want to know how i became this way. how the lack of a phone call can make me feel so unsettled? why am i completely incapable of being alone? i dont get it. and i hate feeling this way ( Read more... )

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