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[twookie]

and then the lights came on in the middle of the night, what I should do with my life, how I should spend my time...on Saturday my life got turned upside down, and I did it to myself. Reno called and woke me up at noon, only a few hours after I had gotten home and gone to sleep. he had some how figured out my MySpace password and was calling me out

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[tribal_fuk]

as I have told you a million times, it wasnt lack of trust. I wnated to know when you went to sleep, since I have been catching you out in little lies such as what time you were going to sleep. I continued to do what I did. You complain all the time that you feel worthless and etc, yet you dont do shit with yourself a sleep all day, all I ever wanted you to do is go to bed at a decent hour and not play online for hours on end tinkering with dumb ass myspace and actually awake in the morning and accomplish something. So these little lies made me go look to see what time you might have gone to bed. I was in dire need to talk to you that morning since my grandfather was just admitted into the ICU unit and I was pretty torn apart. As many times as I explain to you the situation you just keep on thinking what you want. Yea I stooped up to something on myspace about how you lied to me and went and hung out with some guy. I honestly had much trust in you and didnt think anything bad of it although I felt a tad betrayed because of the lie. I

[tribal_fuk]

I think soemtimes you really need to sit down and really think about what you are saying and actually doing. Considering the fact you want me to do good, you want me to not do distructive things such as drink yet you would do something like this to me? I feel as if your words and actions don't make any sense. Just like you are trying to force me out of your life with not even really taking a good look at things. I have done all I can in the last few days to try not to upset you, I mean sometimes I called a few times more then I should but alot of the times I wasnt calling so I would give you your space. It's hard for me I breakdown and cry randomly at any moment. You are the one who opened the communication last night and told me that passed up bowling to come home and talk to me? You're the one who said today was online day. Which gave me all the option to speak with you. It's a damn shame that it has came to this and you have done it all. I think you are trying to find ways to push me farther and farther out of your life as you run

[twookie]

you don't know anything about me, and it's sad, because I wasted two and a half years of my life with you. you know that I've been leaning towards wearing color again, you always refused to let me buy non-black clothes. now that you're gone that's changed. I'm wearing a purple tank top right now, and jeans. and I like it. my world doesn't revolve around you anymore. I am happy and you are just too bitter to accept that. so you make up all this bullshit, you tell me that you know how I feel when you really don't know much of anything at all. I'm sick of arguing. I'm sick of defending myself. as I said last night, and the night before that, I know in my heart what is true and it doesn't matter to me a bit what you think. I tried to hide it from you but you pryed and you found out. just leave me alone. I wanted to help you but you're not willing to help yourself. I broke up with you because you make me miserable. I'm not going to allow you to make me miserable now that we're no longer together