longest entry everrrrr.

it's fucked how things affect me still, although it's good to know I'm still ( Read more... )

I can't believe it. I can't believe it fucking happened. I can't believe he did that shit to me. last night it didn't really sink in, it wasn't until just now that I had a dream about that shit that I actually started to grasp the horrible idea in my head. I don't know what the fuck to do. I want to runnnn. I'm sick of responsibility and trying to ( Read more... )

I have no way to get ahold of you, since you blocked me on myspace and on here. I can't call you because my phone got shut off. I can't email you because I can't access yahoo from this computer. so...I tried. I'm sorry.

I had seven faces,
thought I knew which one to wear.
I'm sick of spending these lonely nights training myself not to care.
the subway is a porno.
and the pavements, they are a mess.
I know you've supported me for a long time.
somehow I'm not impressed.

got to be some more change in my life...
it's up to me now. turn on the bright lights.

Hey Lady--you got the love I need ( Read more... )

I think I might've just realized that I am a shitty person and I just didn't know it. my two best friends completely hate me. I tried to prevent them from dating one another, so that I wouldn't get caught in the middle if they ever broke up. that's shitty of me, I know, but I care about both of them and I didn't want either one of them to get hurt ( Read more... )

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IF IT MAKES YOU WANNA DANCE, THROW UP YOUR HANDS AND SHAKE YOUR ASS!

into the trees!

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