I keep losing my way

Times are tough...
Things are happening that I feel like are out of my control...
Things are coming to a head...
I'm never good enough in anything I choose to do...
Im thinking about moving back to PA...
I'm probably going to move back to PA...

fin

CORRECTION:  I have drank since April 4th but I havent been OUT DRINKING since then.  I have had some wine a few times at the Cheesecake Factory.  Oh and the day before Easter I bought MetallicA Guitar Hero and got drunk playing alllll night...alone....pathetic.  AAnnnnnnnd I had a beer last night.  OKay, here we go, I vow not to go to the pig or ( Read more... )

wow, I cant believe its been a month since I updated.  Where does the time go ( Read more... )

okay, i went online and zooper tells me that the one i bought is suitable for newborns....IT BETTER BE!

Brian messaged me back pleading I let him call me and that he loves me.  It's been a week and I havent responded.  I don't even know what to say or do at this point.

I watched Twilight tonight with Diane and Sean.  Not bad.  Its not my kind of movie but I enjoyed it.  I actully cried at one point where Edward the vampire was asking Bella the human ( Read more... )

Okay so ya...Im so confused about Brian and my heart and mind are both exhausted.  So I confronted him about how weird it was that he doesnt think i was his wife who was messaging me yet it was someone who def knew personal things about Brian and I.  So:

Brian:what your number? i will call you. maybe that would help yes?

Rose: How about you give me ( Read more... )

brian is now telling me that it wasnt him sending those raunchy emails....sigh....my heart is torn and confused.  I feel sick. 

So, im cleaning up my life. Deleting stupid phone numbers, deleting people from my LJ and myspace. I dont have time in my life for stupid motherfuckers. So some funny shit, Brian did message me on myspace. After 2 years of not talking, this is how it went down: B=Brian R=Rose
( BRIAN BULLSHIT )

Clousure from brian...finally.  details later.

oh, i deleted like 40 friends off of here.  clean.  sigh.