I'm enjoying life now. Just waiting certain things out. I'll catch up on bills, buy stuff, and set my life in order. Be more responsible and take care of things. That sort of thing. I've been down. So down I don't think anything could scare me now. I've seen it all. With that said don't be suprised if you see this very mellow, very strong, ( Read more... )

Nothing can make you weaker than something you do to yourself or allow to happen to you. And then at the lowest point when you are all alone and quiet and pushing people away because you are just trying to stand back on your own, the worst people in the world come out and mess with you and scare you and try to harm you. All the way up as you ( Read more... )

Today I felt more alive then I have in a while. Then the day became even better because they gave me more responsibilities at work, which you might wonder how that could make your day better....well at this point of my life I don't want to just sit and be doing nothing except reading wikipedia all day feeling like I'm just there doing time at work ( Read more... )

Today I probably bought the most expensive clothing I've ever bought in my life, but they are not really expensive. I bought a dress shirt and dress pants for about $130 dollars so it is not really really expensive, just expensive by my standards I guess. I could care less, I looked around the store and just didn't want to wear black, blue, or ( Read more... )

I'm pretty happy now. It doesn't take much to make me happy either. I have people to talk to and work is coming along. Pretty soon I'll be building a pretty awesome life where I live right now. Tomorrow I have to do some very limited shopping for clothes; maybe some slacks and a pair of jeans. I have many things on my 'to buy' list, but I'm ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here preparing myself for whatever is coming next, because I know it is coming. And I know it is a group effort but I don't know what it is. I can even feel it. I have a feeling it is both good and bad. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I doubt it.

Completely isolated and alone is about as drama free as you can get, except that people make it for you. The only way to be more drama free is to die, except that other people are still around.

I'm feeling much stronger. Not only has my diet improved immensely, but my social life is starting to become better also. Tomorrow I'm going to a concert, and I'll use the internet to find someone to go out with later like next week. Not the greatest idea but good enough for now. I was supposed to go to the marin headlands today with a friend ( Read more... )

I'm increasing the nutritional content of my diet from junk food to a diet which makes you feel like a greek god everyday. Yesterday I bought 12 different types of vegetables and hope to increase the count to 20+ eventually. I buy half of it at Costco in bulk. I'm not a vegetarian; just a person with a lots of them in his diet. I discovered ( Read more... )

Life continues to become more and more decent. I'm ready to start dating again. But six years of being alone I think might be past the point of no return for a guy. I think I've gone completely nuts. So here I go on with life alone. Maybe after I am able to get medical care I'll ask a doctor for something to suppress all that to nil. I'm not ( Read more... )