i created a new live journal name thingy cause this one seems a little too depressing...it's lolyPOPbinky
K BYE

The fountain is flowing like our lives. Errupting with anger. Or joy? Slamming back into itself. self deflacation, it stopped. does it know i'm here, going silent to here my thoughts that i scribble on this peice, or slice, of paper. There is a momorial at the fountain explaining the beautiful house and land they destroyed. for a fountain and some ( Read more... )

So i ...fuck it i dont feel like sayin shit. k bye.

Ok so i bought some shrooms for me and tayto and we are both tripping so hard and clayton ate them too and he was trippin just as hard as us but then we had to go home and he wanted to hang out and we could have snuck out and i wanted to hang out sooo bad but tayto was way too fucked up to go anywhere so we stayed home. i wanted and want to see ( Read more... )

Clayton hasn’t made a move yet. He needs to hurry up. We are both shy so that’s not too great. Tomorrow is my last day of Spring Break. I had fun. Mary and I camped out last night because we have no more brain cells. It was so fucking cold!! I’m bored and don’t have anything to say…

I just got home from Mary's. She got back to Charlotte and told me to come see her. Patrick came over. I didn't really want to see him but oh well. We hung out there and did our usual nothing and then Jesse and Fefe came and picked us up cause Mary's spending the night at Fefe's tonight. They dropped me off and went on their way. It was cool to see ( Read more... )

I go into my room. Quiet. If they hear they’ll be disappointed. I search through my small burgundy bag for the yellow lighter and a cigarette. Tip toe. I reach the back door. Slowly. I open the door and it creaks. Shh, they will here you. I walk across the yard. Stepping stones. Cold, hard, wet. My feet are damp when I arrive. I sit on the porch. ( Read more... )

I want to go to a rave more than you can possibly imagine. I'm going to create my own rave. I know i'll get arrested but i dont care it would be hella fun shit. Worth it. Smack my bitch up is the perfect song to rave to. Its so full of energy and it just let releases all of its energy into you. It just makes you want to dance forever. I want to be ( Read more... )

I'm sorta crying on and off. I'm not sad AT ALL. i just i dont know im just crying. I went over to claytons today and we just chilled. I can't wait for mary to get back in town. I miss her. I'm tired as butt. I feel like i could pass out right now. right here. I'm going to make a cd for when i trip acid and then i am going to go to bed. i feel ( Read more... )

So hmm. Clayton asked me out the other night and i said yes. This week i found out that it was his birthday and he's just turning 16 and i was like holy shaz you areyoung. I dont usually date younger guys but i dont really care. Mary went to south cac today and she called me twice to say love you, bye. How cute. I'm glad it's spring break and im ( Read more... )