Yet again people assume that nature of my posts are a direct response to theirs. I can't keep apologising for theing I've never done to people I had nothing to say about but they think I did. This is getting stupid, no it's pathetic. I can't seem to vent about anything without someone somewhere thinking that I'm talking about them. I pissed ( Read more... )

I was going to rant on here about people and their constant need for acknowledgement and their craving for drama, but what's the point? Nothing I say will have any bearing on their decisions. I don't have a bandaid for this one. I'm starting to lose my ability to be empathetic. I have my own problems to tend to, I have my own reality that I live in ( Read more... )

Somethings have been going on that I can't control. Things that I can't change thouh I wish I could. People I want to save, but I can't. Jackie told me to stop trying to change the world, that some people just want to suffer. I didn't believe her until recently. Then there are people who don't think anything is wrong, or choose to ignore it as if ( Read more... )

I saw Benji Saturday at Wal-mart of all places and met his girlfriend Sarah. I miss him and his playing with fire. Benji is pretty cool.

So things have been tense, a continuing puzzle, and a frustrated oddessy for a friendship. When offered safe harbor, does a ship not enter? Not this one, it flees and runs into the raging storm, near the rocks. Determined to fly against reason and tempt fate, for what? To be right, to prove something, to make one notice, or in hopes of being dashed ( Read more... )

I guess it never stops. Why should it? I stopped taking the Effexor, I keep hoping that I won't need it. I do, and that sucks. I don't want to be medicated for the rest of my life. I don't want to be controlled like this. If I don't take it, the mood swings are worse, the overwhelming thoughts reemerge, and I'm totally fucked. Sometimes I think its ( Read more... )

So many things in this world are unexplainable, and as humans go we have an intense desire to explain EVERYTHING. I read yesterday in my text for my Intro to World Religions class, there were several articles that I really thought about sending to Lesley. Especially one on the systematic removal of the "orginal" god, who happened to be FEMALE. Then ( Read more... )

I feel like peeling off my skin. It is driving me crazy, damn allergies. I'm at work and I feel drained. I can't figure out why. I think I'm going to hit the gym this morning before class. I think working out might just help with the energy problem. I need to pack and get my supplies for printmaking. So much to do that its hard to even begin. ( Read more... )

Of Sirens and Virgins ( Read more... )

From a time ago, when the phrases haunted me and refused to leave ( Read more... )