I just wanted to point something out, the last journal entry was submited at 11:11 am.. and i didnt even know that until now, Every time that showed up on the clock i would make a wish, that would involve him and i. now its over... ouch.. why did i fall for him>? I fucking love him. and i cant stop it.

my feelings have left my body. I can't quit crying over something i've been expecting. Im happy to be free. But im so damn sad of losing what we had. It was perfect. It was going to develop into something even more beautiful. Now i feel numb. I gave him a last kiss goodbye. That was the hardest thing ive ever had to do. I can't quit thinking about ( Read more... )

I appologize to all of my friends that I have hurt. This past semester has kept me on my toes! I have now realized that this is college, I no longer am allowed to have a life outside of school work. Unfortunetly I didn't make the time to spend with my friends or even worse, make the time to even talk to my frends. Esp. Derrek, Sarah and Sarah.. and ( Read more... )

ok so i did it again... i fell for him again and i know he's guna break my heart AGAIN !!! What the fuck..

yesturday sucked, then got better, last night it got worse, and then it got better.. and through all of this shit, i can defenitely say I have fallen too fucking hard for this kid. i read his journal.. made me realize a bunch of things... not bad things, well some, but mostly good. i feel soo bad for doing it. but i mean, come on he reads this ( Read more... )

Meet me in outer space ( Read more... )

I spoke to Dean about the things that i have been thinking about lately.... i've decided that i need to talk to him about things more often!.. whenever they bother me.. because, i feel that now that i've opened up to him, i feel closer to him, in a big way!.. and i couldn't be happier about it! I need to also start realizing that this relationship ( Read more... )

ok, so whenever i feel stressed, i hide... or i get crazy... and this past weekend i got crazy.. friday night was soo fun!.. i partied non stop Saturday as well.. and Saturday was WAY more crazier than friday!!! haha.. we decided to go camping at the last minute, however Zach and I decided we were too tired to pass out in a tint.. and WAY too ( Read more... )

I dont know what to do,... im soo lost right now, the only emotion i can come to use is crying. I went to the pool today, met one of my neighbors. Arrianne was there, and this guy was just complimenting her *arrianne.. and she deserved it! she is SOO beautiful, and i agreed with the man who continually told her how beautiful she was.. but then he ( Read more... )

ok, so i figured out, that im guna call Dean, and just talk too him... and im not guna be stupid any more.. and just let things go.... im guna tell him how i feel.. i think he needs too know... anyways, i spoke to him today, and it just made me miss him even more... and that feeling sucks, but its also a great feeling, to know that I will be seing ( Read more... )