Hey Emmy. Im doin alright. I'm not really sure what you meant by "last time u called u sounded like it was a big deal if i spoke to u again". I didnt mean for it to come off like that. I love hearing from you. I've been thinking about you and last year a lot. You're cross sits on my night stand and I've kept the letter you wrote me, which i read ( Read more... )

ok, so i went to the "Y" today and i ran 5 miles.. it was amazing!.. im guna do it every day!.. it felt soo wonderful!.. for the rest of the day i was full of energy, very nice!!.. yea, that was very exciting.. i hope i can loose some weight..! that would be sweet! yea, so this guy called me the other day.. wondering how i had been over the summer ( Read more... )

so, im still feelin depressed! i thiink i need to get a "REAL" job, instead of workin for my mom.. i feel like im not being myself any more cause all of a sudden my mom has money, and she's spoiling me rotten... and im not used to it... i dont want this. i lived on my own for the past 5 years.. and now all of a sudden since i moved down to florida ( Read more... )

so this entire weekend has been one giant blur!... my partying began friday night, and didnt end until around 3am Sunday... haha.. yea, im an alcholic!.. but i had an amazing birthday. and i was soo happy that some of my friends were there!.. i wish Ashley could have made it, but i know she had a lot of other things on her mind.(which is ( Read more... )

i had a wonderful evening two nights ago... i began drinking around 3:30 pm.. got pretty drunk then, i went and picked up Ashley, and everyone came back to my place, and we drank grain shitty shitty vodka.. and then proceeded to get even more fucked up.. wrong move!.. i puked, and then eventually passed out, around 4 am.. i drank for nearly 12 ( Read more... )

i am unhappy with the way i look... i am tired of feeling 'bigger' than other girls... especially when i go out with my friends, and everyone pays attention to the 'hottie's in the room, and not me... i know that sounds stupid, but thats how i feel.. therefore, tomorrow i am begining my work out... and im going to begin to lose weight. and i am soo ( Read more... )

my furniture has finally arrived at my new house... im SOOOOO excited to unload all of the many boxes and finally get settled in!!.. i already have my bed set all set up! and i missed my bed SOO much, but now its back, and im guna be sleeping hella good!!! and im sad, my best friend Derrek, will be leaving me in two days.. i can't believe how fast ( Read more... )

i have realized, during my endless nights of drinking and thinking... how much i wish i could have shown him how much i love him, and maybe get a response from him. I have finally come to realize how much i care for him, and how he doesnt feel the same. That truely hurts. I wish i could just show him, show him my feelings.. express them to him and ( Read more... )

ok, so i wrote dean a letter, explaining how i feel.. and explaning the thoughts that are traveling through my head... and it was a crazy letter, cause i wrote it when i was drunk... prolly not the best thing to do. anyways, i explaned how i cared for him, and how i didnt understand his ways of thinking and what not.. and how i wish that next ( Read more... )

i am finished with all of my work~!!! and now im just guna be chillin for the next week or so!!!.. and i am SOOO happy for it.. i really dont want to go home... but i think its time that i did, and face the music.... *my father*.. but u know.. its cool cause im sure i wont EVER be home when i am "home"... i'll be with my friends the entire time, or ( Read more... )