i dont think anyone really reads this anymore. well here is an update. i'm going to through some mental changes right. i'm having a hard time figuring it out on my own but this is the only. i find myself more irratable towards people now. i need to go to my happy place.

What do you do when everything that you have ever wanted falls into place. All the material things in the world that you have dreamed of obtaining are within your grasp. What do you do when you cannot find love because your heart has turned black and the only love you know is from friends and family. And, you cherish this love like no other enough ( Read more... )

do you know what it is like to feel completely alone. Like everything you had has left. I remember a long time ago when i was happy all the time. I went out all the time. I have fun all the time. Now days its rare to have fun and be happy. I'm alone and there is nothing here. Not shit here for me. this city has taken and taken from me. the ( Read more... )

Sometimes I hate some aspects about myself.

The reason I do what I do.

I don't care what happens to me. I love my family. But, there is one person I care about the most. He has saved my life before. He is forever by my side. I love him with everything I have.

Well here it is. I understand that the reason i am single right now is because i'm not pursuing it to my fullest. I have been blaming past situations on my current life. Yes, I have a sketchy past with women. Yes, the most recent girlfriend i had shattered what remaining trust I had in women. I am trying to work on these. So, I order to try ( Read more... )

I AM SO FREAKING HUNG OVER this is stupid. I don't feel good and i have to go drinking again in about 2 hours.

I'm so lost and unhappy right now.

I need people that are willing to play around in my studio with me.

empty.

I got this from Icasualties.org I mean really how many more soldiers have to die for a mis-leading agenda. This is bull shit.

U.S. Deaths Confirmed By The DoD: 2215
Reported U.S. Deaths Pending DoD Confirmation: 5
Total 2220

http://www.icasualties.org