Holding out for what you know is best is one of the hardest things to do. Along the way you fall into so many detours that look so inticing. There is so much out there that is beautiful, in part. But as a whole they dont quite reach what you know in your heart to be the greatest beauty to ever be grasped. To believe in such an idea has driven the ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like you are totally disconnected to your culture? for me, in america, i often feel very UN"american". maybe it was because i was raised being aware of other cultures and being facinated by their value systems. half of the time i feel like america has traded her dignity, her integrity, her value systems for the "freedom" of ( Read more... )

so you know how i KNOW that i live in the ghetto? well...there were 2 driveby shootings just up my street yesterday and 4 people died, 15 were injured. gunshots, cops, ambulances, an entire neighborhood taped off, blood in the streets and down the drains, bodies getting pulled out of cars and houses, you know...the whole 9 yards. it was at that ( Read more... )

at this current moment in time:

i am incredibly bored.

totally frustrated.

longing for someone who actually understands me.

missing my real friends.

tired.

somewhat sad.

wondering what it'd be like to believe...like a little kid believes. the kind of belief that makes things happen.

i dunno.

i just wish i could fly.

here's some killer motivation. this girl is so sweet. i love her ( Read more... )

to be perfectly honest, i am really frustrated. i'm trying to build my business and no one else is interested in building a business with me. my parents and relatives are surprisingly unsupportive and uninterested in participating in something i'm passionate about ( Read more... )

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SOOOOOOO much to update on and SO little time to do so....but i want everyone to know that if you've heard rumors of me getting engaged, they're TRUE! :o) adam and i got engaged this past weekend. i hesitated on posting the info online, so if you want an announcement email me your address at ( Read more... )

my AIM officially hates me. it refuses to let me sign on. i've been trying for about a week and a half now. :oP SO IRRITATING. but anyways....yeah. i just thought i would vent my frustration.

the internet is a beautiful thing. :oP

whelp, for those of you who i dont speak with on a regular basis....HELLOOOOOOO! :o) things are going well these days ( Read more... )