Today I was reading some of my old entries... and I have come to the conclusion that I always feel lonely... Now, is it because I close myself off from people so they don't open up to me, and so forth. Or, could it be that people just don't like me, or can't be close to me. Or maybe I am looking for company in the wrong place/people.... I really ( Read more... )

After the past few months of meeting friends from foreign countries, remeeting friends from this country who have now become foreigners, and remeeting myself I have realised how utterly ignorant of the rest of the world I really am. It's not by choice at all... It's mroe a matter of opportunity. That opportunity is approaching me quickly only ( Read more... )

So I feel like an asshole... I feel like I am inconveniencing my friends... and even annoying them... maybe i am just paranoid... maybe I am not... oh well ( Read more... )

I am moving in a week... last week I didn't sleep for 5 days... I am involved with someone who is involved with someone else... and I don't care... and either do they... but still.. it's like what the fuck is going on in my life? And you really don't want to judge that last little bit I said there, because you don't even know the gist of it... and ( Read more... )

I forgot what it was like to meditate.

Something is different.

Heh... I have a band... grad is next weekend... I am moving out soon... Jennie comes home soon too... and I am going to university *stress*... whee... but I don't understand this weird mood... I just don't get it...

So sometimes moms get extremely, overly proud of thier graduates and devote an entire section of the living room to their lives...

Some days... I am so full of love... I hardly know what to do with myself...

"Beauty lies where chaos meants the calm"

Such great words...

Oh Jenny... Just wait until you come back!

So I was on msn, and some random guy on the internet added me to msn so I said yes to the requst, knowing I could block him if he proved to be an idiot... and let's just say after this conversation... he has been blocked ( Read more... )

Ha, so I rolled out of bed this morning at 6:30 am... normally I would just lay there in bed and whine to myself about how tired I felt but I am strangely cheerful for the strange hour... my coffee was a little too minty, but that's ok... and I got to school far too early for grad council... then I later discovered that I was on the list to get a ( Read more... )