i want to die so so so so so badly please make the hurting stop

help. i can't get rid of the sad. i can't get rid of it.

i keep sighing and sighing and sighing and sighing

Today was one of those always going, never stopping days. It was weird, but nice, I think ( Read more... )

Through the urgance of Maria, I will now update my livejournal. I like to do this in bullet points for some reason ( Read more... )

I can't stop your memory from breaking my heart.

I feel so guilty. I can’t stop eating. I am weaning off of my medication and I think it is making me have crazy cravings. I want salty. I want sweet. I want chocolate. I want carbs. Like never before, I want them. I want to stuff them in my mouth forever ( Read more... )

It is so weird how long I have had a live journal. There have been so many technological changes to the LJ format over the years and I can't keep up ( Read more... )

I feel so alone and so sad. Why? Why? Why? I'm not religious but I am praying to make my hurting go away.

Number of "Sex and the City" tshirts I now own: 1 (Steve and Barry's sells cheap glittery ones for 9 bucks)
Number of times I've seen "Sex and the City: the Movie" in theatres: 2
Number of impossibly inconvenient crushes: 1 (but what crushes are convinent ( Read more... )

As melodramtic as it sounds, my life is simply a waiting game for my physical body to match the state of my brain.