hello. yeah so new years was way better then expected, there were no tears, and lots of laughing. mauras brother and his friends were hillarious, they dressed up in this fire work suit thing and shot roman candals at each other, and strapped 160 black cats to the black guy. good times, i ended up being the "secratary" i had to duck tape the guys ( Read more... )

starting the new year feeling this bad, this lost, this hurt, is going to be hard. i went to as far as promising change in my life, who i hang with, what i do, and what i don't do, just to gaurantee a good year for me. i really do deserve it, i had the worst year of my life 2005, so 2006 should hold good things, but this whole shit going on right ( Read more... )

im going to cry myself to sleep tonight. he wonders why i wanted him to stay and never go back to the hell of a place. he'll pick her in the end, he always will. everything that was said, will soon be forgotten, everything that was felt will soon be forgotten, by him. but not for me, this one is goin to take alot out of me ( Read more... )

I have a while to think aboutsome things. and theres somwthing that i keep relizing. we all get in our heads at a young age these big dreams and expectations. but when we get older they get shot down. love is like it is in the movies, but then you relize its not. parents arae always there adn perfedct, but then they aren't. you grow up adn fine the ( Read more... )

talking about living in candy land off of carmel frap. lane. houses made of chocolate, and living next door to snickers. wishing; the sky were orange during the day and teal at night, with a big star shaped moon that would turn into a black light every 3 months. wishing the grass was lavender, trees were deep purple with yellow leaves, zebras were ( Read more... )

hello losers its x-mas eve, dont feel like it ( Read more... )

hmm what has happend sence sunday?!?!?! had my finals, i think i bomed my spanish adn did semi well on te others, got a 70 on te i.p.c. one, i could have done better. monday hannah came over and we just hung out and played with my puppy then we went to target adn she bought me starbucks, so yummy. then on tuesday i came home and talked on the phone ( Read more... )

"how can something so strong make this weak? ohh nothing bout' love makes sence." that song never really sparked an interest in me untill now. I actually cryed when I got off the the phone with him last night. we didn't have a sad conversation, nothing was said at all that would be the slightest bit upseting. but I cryed. not an all out bawl of ( Read more... )

I know i said i hate christmas, and i still do ( Read more... )

hello. i hate chritmas, friday was "show your holiday spirit) day at school. everyone wore stupid antlers and santa hats. the meaning behind x-mas is lost, no one is celebrateing the real reason, its jesus's birthday, im not a very religous person in the first place so why would i make a big deal out of this holiday. yeah so anyways, friday night ( Read more... )