Nursing school sucks! enough said.. well ok maybe not enough. I am a junior and I should be thinking about getting ready for my senior year and how my life will change blah blah blah... NO I am worried about how I am going to keep my teachers off my back so that I can actually pass nursing school ( Read more... )

Does some guy want to inform me how a couple can have a fantastic weekend and two days later the dude is being a dick.. i dont understand.. jon informs me today that the time he takes to drive home is  a way to releive his tension of his busy day..thats fine and dandy but he never told me this until today when he was being a jerk.. so after i told ( Read more... )

So I need a loan to finish school next year even if I dont go to harlaxton.. I need a co-signer because i dont have good credit. my parents both are not eligible to do it and so i asked my god mother who is a nurse and understands how important this dream is for me.. SHE SAID NO she said she didnt want anything to come inbetween us if i were to ( Read more... )

I was the fat kid at the mall today...
I'm not happy with who I am or what I look like
I give up

I'm trying to be strong

I'm  trying to believe I can really become a nurse

I'm trying to believe really...

ugh illness, stress, doubt, SUCK

 Do you ever think we do the things we do because ppl want us to and not because we want to?
I feel that way right now.. its 3:19 in the morning and i feel this way
I want to make my own decisions my own mistakes but i am lead down another path

maybe its the lack of sleep talking IDK but ya

goodnight world

oh how new year goals are so over rated but oh well im going to state them anyway. 
1. get mucho better grades
2. get what i need for harlax
3. be true to myself
4. try and get into shape (even if i dont lose any weight)
5. Be the best Jo I can be

Back to evansville tomorrow! happy and sad.. its almost over 3 semesters and done! woohoo!!!

Thanksgiving break is almost over and I am quite sad. I have spent the week with Jon cleaning out his wounds from his crazy motorcycle accident. we have unpacked some of his belongings into his new apt and we have had some fun on the little money that we have. pray for us becuase right now we are having some fiancal problems and its hard when you ( Read more... )

 Please world dont lie to me and tell me its going to be ok when I know its not. I'm trying the best I can so please back off it.. thats what I need for real is a break. no one can understand what i mean becuase your not me

 i dont really know waht is going through my mind. I have so much going on that I wish i just had a break. I need to finish a book find 4 nursing articles write a 10 page paper and do countless med sheets for class. even with the up coming break I will not feel de-stressed. I am longing to be done with school but I have one and half more years to ( Read more... )