Jon.. I really miss him.. i need my crazy rock to be around to keep me sane ( Read more... )

For a while after jon had talked about living on the east coast forever I was kinda like NO i dont think so.. but i really am ready to do that.. there is not much here in this state of IN and im ready to go. ready to move on ready to start my life ready to be the best wife/nurse/mother/friend I can  be its just not going to be in Indiana. yes my ( Read more... )

I'm having better days. lately i've been becoming more motivated to do reading and get back on track.  I read a whole chapter for class today which is a big step for me. lol since gallbladder surgery I have not been myself but day by day i am getting better. still dont know the results of my first exam but i can only build from it ( Read more... )

I really want to be motivated about my junior year of college but i'm not.. I really dont understand what is going on with me.. maybe I need to go to couseling. I dont understand what is going on.. maybe its from the surgery I dont really know..I try to talk to my mom and dad and they keep saying that its going to be ok. HOW do they know are they ( Read more... )

so i'm having a bad time right now with school. I did not want to have surgery the first week and i didnt expect to take this long to recover. well now i am doing better but i am already behind in class and my teachers all think that i will do fine and catch up. NOT i am not your typical student i need more time to read and understand what i am ( Read more... )

well i moved to evansville on wednesday and all was well i did a little dancin for workshop.. pretty much dont remember it that well.. ugh.. then thursday i moved into my room right now i dont have a roommate that is ok with me. but oh well. then find out thursday that my furture sister in laws husband of 7 weeks died. so i had to pack my bags and ( Read more... )

Ugh i hate this time of year. in 2 days I will be heading home to indiana and leaving all that I have done in CT behind. Im going to miss jon, dasiy, and pande. I'm going to drive over 12 hrs to come home then in a week drive another 6 to evansville. 16 hours away is going to kill me. the next time I will see my loves will be at christmas. I hate ( Read more... )

Things have changed and I dont really like it. We arent even back yet and I dont wish to return right now. I thought I did but man was I wrong. not looking foward to goodbyes, 16 hour drives, and evansville bullshit.. bring it on life bring it on ( Read more... )

I am slightly envious/jealous.... ugh everyday i find out one of my friends is engaged or whatever and they are all getting married before me. I've got more years than most its just not fair oh well i guess time is on my side and life will go on it just hurts sometimes...

theres more i can say just don't want to get angry

weeks until i head home to indiana. today is monday the start of my last few weeks in connecticut. I have met alot of people out here some that didnt like me at first but i think I have grown on them. I have worked countless hours and have no money to show for it but yet i still work. I have spent hours and hours with my lover and our two dogs and ( Read more... )