there has got to be more than this. what am i searching for.

so we are on the way home from driving my brother back to penn state and my mom and i started talking about spirituality and it was a little frustrating. But i was thinking about how we really understand nothing and thats okay and it's beautiful, and as much as i try to understand i never will and there is nothing wrong with that. and i thinking ( Read more... )

There has got to be more to life than a job and having off only two weeks a year. i get bored too easily.

so i'm actually on the mail route and i have pretty much finished two hours earlier than i was supposed to so now i'm just hanging out till i have to go back to the office. dan and jess went to nyc today and i just wish i could have went with them. I wish that with this job i could have off sometimes, but oh well maybe someday. i asked if there was ( Read more... )

our cat, my most favorite pet on the planet, is dying and it makes me so upset.

okay so when i was in new orleans in september or so we we're painting grandma's house. and it was this one specific day when it was extremely sunny and warm.  and i was painting the underside of the roof on the porch so i was in the shade. and when i was in the shade i could feel this breeze blow that was on the cool side and when i closed my eyes ( Read more... )

okaaaay..i dont even love it when..

people don't have addresses.

when people have the smallest mail slot ever..and they have a sign up expressing how important it is that ALL the mail be shoved through that little hole...and then they are the ones getting the most mail on the block.   like really? if you want me to shove it in there getting a fucking ( Read more... )

it's been so long. i haven't written since november.  lots of things have changed ( Read more... )

lately things just don't seem that real. and i don't know what that means.

homecoming was funny. i had a really good time.  we should do it again sometime ( Read more... )