Imagine wanting something your entire life. But not just wanting it, craving it, needing it, dreaming of it, and doing everything in life to make this thing a possibility in your life ( Read more... )

the wedding is coming. ack. is it wrong to be terrified? not of the actual marriage, but of the whole day in general. EVERYONE will be looking. you know how people try to make you feel better when you do something embarrassing and they say "no one is looking at you anyway?" well that will not be true the day of. I want to be excited and happy and ( Read more... )

Sometimes you think your thoughts are your own, that you're the only one thinking them ( Read more... )

She called ( Read more... )

Sent a letter to my mom regarding the wedding and how I would like to start a positive relationship with her before the big day and how I would like for her to be there for me. This was last Thursday, and no phone call or letter in response yet.

The wait continues, more to update at a later date.

 so much for new years resolutions. But i am in a sharing mood so away we go ( Read more... )

 so you think you're going to plan a wedding huh ( Read more... )

 i thought that i would try to keep this up... again!  i'm sorry i just can't remember to update, or have the personal time to do such a thing. I also had this awesome thought that i would take up woodworking AND vlogging or whatever you call it on youtube. youtube may actually happen but i def. wont; be advertising that to the people i know. i ( Read more... )

 sooooo trying to lose weight.... bane of my existance? i want to.. i really do but then when i get told i can't do something or that i shouldn't instantly thats ALLLLLL i want to do ... seriously... if i just didnt' have it and no one said anything i could probably care less but once its taboo.. everything goes out the window. Its something dee ( Read more... )

 Spent the day today getting paint, and paint supplies and the painting. Happy with my one colour sooooo unhappy with the other. I mean really you look at the colour Lime Rickey on the sherwin williams website and its looks nice and light and not 15 year old "cool" room-ish (if anyone understand what that means) annd i buy it and it looks ( Read more... )