I was wishing for different ( Read more... )

Is it wrong that I don't think of you anymore?
It certainly feels wrong. Or maybe just different.
I really couldn't figure out why I felt so different until a moment ago.
And that was only by chance.

I'm have an unnerving - yet reassuring - weekend.

~ Just Me [I got the job at Chuck E. Cheese!]

I'm making this up as I go along. You're the one who is putting titles on it, all underlined in bolded text. Stand out. Because it's too easy just to blend in and that's why you have to abandon structure. Structure is for the boring and the predictable and I'd like to be niether of those things even though I may look the part. But looking the part ( Read more... )

I hate routine.

in the long long grass
you went gone and been mystery
you look to be looking
click clock tick tock clock

it, hand-held untouchable
a screamed quiet loudness
fail( u r )e, fut( u r )e
you don’t know (anything)
any every some

you’re a by gone be by gone
a perpetual looker until
you (be quiet) dead always
nothing finding meaning something

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we are,
the ( ( Read more... )

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Does anyone else feel like they are living on rewind? I should be making progress but I'm just erasing footsteps that have been left in the dirt. There's dirt on my shoes but I'll never tell you where it's from and you'll never know and in the end it won't really matter anyway. The important thing is that I'm back tracking and I'm thinking about ( Read more... )

...and it makes me be me again and believe in not believing and remember that no one ever deserves to fall in love because it's the same thing as putting a bullet through your throat. and it's sexual and violent and hot and i want to dance dance dance until i pass out. and i want sweaty people and crowded rooms and smokes and flashing lights and ( Read more... )

"Another thing is no matter how much you think you love someone, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close." -Chuck Palahniuk