::stretch:: well its been a while since i've had the urge to write in this thing, i became more and more cynical of it the less and less i wrote or paid attention to it. but here i am crawling back on hands and knee's, looking for justification for my existence. well my new years idea's for the future include getting my GED and getting the fuck out ( Read more... )

Hey, reading scotts entry i realized that i don't have many of my friends addresses and phone numbers..sooooooo...anyone who feels like they maybe want to still stay in contact with me can mail them to me at theyarelying@earthlink.net and i'll email you my shite back..i don't really want to put it on here for some reason. Oh, and andy that means ( Read more... )

I've been realizing lately that i'm in some sort of confused state..i don't know where i stand in life..where I want to go, what i want to do..you know..all the cliche's..what is true happiness, what is it to be totally content..or is it lack of contentment that makes us truly happy..something to always work for..maybe that's one of the reasons i ( Read more... )

Well, i just got home from driving 11 hours through nowhere country. I was just at my moms in south dakota for five days. I did too much and came home exhausted. Er..lots of hill and cliff climbing for me, played slot machines in deadwood, waded out to a spring fed little waterfall, drove through the badlands, took four rolls of pictures, sat on a ( Read more... )

I never write anymore..it doesn't seem like i do much in that sense..i moved up in karate..purple belt now..i think i'm the only one who realizes how much it is to me..i see it as a form of expression..most of the time i have problems doing that..i drive to south dakota friday to see my mom, sister..and never met niece..i'm excited about that.. ( Read more... )

I AM 44% PUNK.


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I don't really want to go to work today..or tomorrow...or.. well..you get the picture. I've been thinking of saving up money just to take off from work for a while..not like to go anywhere, but just to not be at work..i waste so much fucking time there..and i figure since i don't have any major responsibilities why should i work so fucking much. I' ( Read more... )

Opening up to someone ripping me apart emotionally...depths that haven't been reached reacting to light being shined in them...emotional..yeah..fuck it.. i don't care..that's me..that's how i am..i care too much.. i feel too much..i don't feel enough...i read a lot..i think a lot...i drink a lot...i have a lot to be happy for yet a lot to be ( Read more... )

I fucking love the fall..one of the only times of year where i can go outside to do stuff..seeing that the sun and heat aren't too harsh...i'm gothic not by choice. I've been thinking a lot lately of cutting back my hours at work..i don't know..some nice time to do other stuff would be good. But i don't know how much i need to survive every month ( Read more... )

Well my evening has gone pretty shitty..the movie i saw tonight (zoolander) was the highpoint but then it just went down from there..ever had someone you really care about unload a bunch of unknown information on you..say that you don't really know them..and be horribly distant while asking advice all at the same time? probably. Yeah so..thats ( Read more... )