i wanna quit!? why can't i quit?!! IT'S SUCH AN UNFORTUNATE AND UGLY ADDICTION. rowing sucks.

i love smalls shiner; she's the best friend i've ever had and the best thing that's ever happened to me. maureen mcauliffe, lauren mcnaught, and rossana aviles run a close tie for second place. i love those girls ( Read more... )

i really don't want to row this year. but it'll be giving up, and i'll be pissed at myself for quitting, and i'll get way out of shape and not want to go back my senior year. but seriously, the idea of staying on the team and going to practice every morning fucking sounds like hell. i'm sick of their mouths, i'm sick of all the bullshit that comes ( Read more... )

it's amazing how much it hurts to watch the person you love cry and what i would do to fix it for her.

I. am. in. love.

for real =)

happy new year, i think it'll be one for the books.

my world was turned upside down on october 13th in the best way possible. <3.

it's not a big problem anymore.

my apartment's amazing.
i'm in love with college.
i totalled my car.
my apartment's amazing.
rowing is sweet.
i never sleep anymore. ever.
i'm sick.
my apartment's amazing.
i miss the beach.

mixed range of emotions there, but that's about everything.

jersey was fucking amazing. i haven't had that much fun in quite a long time, this is shaping up to be the best month of my life. i'll always remember that trip: august 3-7, 2008. i can't really pinpoint why it was so much fun, it just was. we were supposed to come back the 6th, but just straight up decided we didn't want to leave yet. so we stayed ( Read more... )

 lkjalsdjkflaksdf i don't really know what i want to say, i just feel like i have to vent. it's uncomfortable. so i can't figure out what to do about next summer. i really just want to go to hawaii with smalls and live/work there for 3 months. it'd be killer. but i kind of want to row at the development camp too...? and i kind of want to come home ( Read more... )

i feel disconnected. and lost.