Last night, I caught up with some friends from high school with whom I was very close. It was somewhat odd seeing them again, but somehow comforting. What made it a little weirder was the fact that one of them is my three time ex, and we seemed to be getting along rather well. Perhaps TOO well... Don't want to see myself get swept up in that ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm feeling a lot better now that I'm actually awake... I stole this survey from my friend Jade (who I really need to talk to a lot more ( Read more... )

I feel lower than I've felt in a long time, and I hate to get all "emo." Perhaps the slight hangover is adding to the overall sense of sadness. I really don't think it has anything to do with breaking up with Paul, either. Or maybe it does. I just feel horribly lonely and bitter today. But I know that feeling is going to pass (hopefully really

Despite the fact that I slept way too late today (and have to work at seven tomorrow morning), I'm actually feeling pretty good about the world today. I have a job I truly enjoy. I enjoy it to the point that I don't mind going. Ever. Sure, getting up in the morning sucks, but I really love what I do. My keyboard (MIDI controller, really) came ( Read more... )

I could really use a hug. I'm feeling dull and lonely right now. And here I am bitching about it on the Internet...

My baby brother is home from Alaska! I'm do happy to see him. He's in the Army, so I only get to see him about once a year, and this time when he goes back, he's leaving for Iraq! This does not make me happy at all. Every day that I sit at home worrying about him, I'm going to blame our greedy, megalomaniacal presdident (whose name I can't even ( Read more... )

So Paul and I were driving down Route 41 minding our own business. A wild storm was raging, lightning crashing around us and wind whipping rain across the windshield. Visiblity was at an extreme low. The raindrops were splattering, leaving rings on the windows about the size of tennis balls. I was starting to get a little frightened. Then, I ( Read more... )

Yesterday was truly horrible. I woke late and was rushing to get ready for work, when I glanced into Corwin's cage, and saw that she was dead. Corwin was my first and best snake. She was a totally sweetie, and I adored her. I miss her so much, I can hardly bear it!

It takes losing someone to realize exactly how much they truly mean to you. I lost Paul last week, and since then, I've been desperately spiraling through depression and hopelessness. I knew that I had made a mistake. I knew that I still wanted to be with Paul. I shouldn't have broken the relationship, but tried instead to mend it. We had a ( Read more... )

Cascade of marble tears
Heart-shaped droplets
In endless surge of weak penitence

Behind boulder-heavy doors
Silent like a tornado
Silent like a bomb
Never silent like the grave