I don't feel good. I feel really bad about myself. I feel that I'm not in control of myself anymore, and thats scary. I'm letting my self fall away to something else *I think we know what* and I don't like it. I want me back. I want my self respect back. Forget everyone else, and what they think, I want to know that I can do it, and im GOING to. It ( Read more... )

Welp, my dad said that he wasn't gonna let me come down, because his girlfriend didn't want me to.

"FUCK THE POLICE, AND FUCK THE PRESIDENT!"

the blood of tears
run down her face
no one there to wipe it up
no one there to even care
o well some seem to say
but i a lost soul there to help
and hold
but just a little confused
the blood turns in to mine
and the tears there running down my face
not a suprise that girl the whole time was me

You slam the door behind you ( Read more... )

I'm not gunna talk about all this shit, because I refuse to let it upset me. Memz, your right. Thanks. And, if you can get your boyfriend to do it, please do ( Read more... )

I SAY GODDAMN! GODDAMN GODDAMN GODDAMN ( Read more... )

Yesterday blow! Chris said he would cum over...but he didn't. And then, my mom found coke in my room, AND then, my dad said he didn't want me to cum with him, and that anytime I had a problem, never call him agian. But, yet...I'm okay. It didn't really effect me. I think that I've gone numb to pain and hurt, I can't feel it anymore. I knew there ( Read more... )

Why does everyone leave me?
Why do the ones I love, leave me without so much as a good~bye?
Why do the one the ones I care about, never semm to be there?
Why am i always alone when all I want is someone to say it's okay, and their there?
Why are my friends never there?
Why am i always alone?
Why do I always fell cold, and numb?
Why am I not loved?

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Me and Jarrod aren't talking anymore, and never will again.

You never miss something till it's gone.

I really, truley loved him...