I realized why I fell off the chair. I was so upset from the days goings ons. I freaked out. I can't hang out with people I don't feel connected to. People I don't feel at ease with make me crazy. I loose my shit. I can't be around negativity and anger. I can't go around talking about wanting to sleep with tons of boys with no emotion because I don ( Read more... )

I am tired of this life. I am tired of all things shallow and uninteresting. I do not care. I need to surround myself with positive people. It makes me so sad to think of others in a negative way. I want to love all of humanity. I want to be with others in a profound and enlightening way. I want to step into them and vice versa in a meaningful and ( Read more... )

I think that I shall never find anyone that is meant for me. Why is it so hard? I know that I am at least physically attractive to a point, so why can't a boy just come over and have sex with me? why? because I am too picky. I don't like anyone. I don't let anyone touch me. (omit dude in cab) I don't think I will ever fully stop adoring the last ( Read more... )

I am very sad that school is no longer going to be in session. I wanted to take classes over the summer, but alas I am not a resident of this putrid state yet. I don't hate it that much anymore though. Just a little ( Read more... )

So today I was unwaveringly kind to everyone. I am kind to everyone every day though, so there is no difference today. Sometimes when I am ringing people up at my register I look at them when they are looking away and I want to kiss them and hug them and cry. I feel like I love them so much and it makes me want to cry ( Read more... )

I do not think I have it in me to be inside reality any more. I am never thinking of things of this earth. Here are some things I want to have happen ( Read more... )

I realized something about maine that I did not understand before. The first is that I need to get out of here as quickly as possible. The second is that the majority of people here are extrememly conservative. Never having lived anywhere other than maine would most definately cause someone to push away new ideas out of fear. And really, who would ( Read more... )

Every day I make it a point to treat everyone with respect and kindness, yet I have faltered in recent months. This has caused much anguish in me. It means so much to me that I treat others with kindness. It is hard for me to balance kindness with being strong and being tough at the same time. No one likes a push-over. Especially not me. If I act ( Read more... )

I got my game back ( Read more... )

I have to compile some information about a report that I am working on for school. This report is to be on the abolition of the death penalty. I layed everyone down on the floor with my fierce debate about gun control. That we don't really need to focus on laws. Here is what I said ( Read more... )