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......i feel so old
im afraid to go back through all the posts on this acc lmfao
...p sure i have had a grand total of 0 character growth since then
...........i was very confused about the name 'judy elkins' but [finger guns @ self] i get it. i get it. ok then. -
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stubbornly refuses to eat again today even though she woke up hungry-ish and only ate twice yesterday ( Read more... ) -
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hmmmmmmmmm but why not give up on everything? so I feel guilty as shit about being too lazy to do anything that's actually life-y. Who cares? why should I want to do life-y things? why should I bother? I have no interest in the world and I can't just keep going on as I am now. Might as well just ( Read more... ) -
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I'm feelin' all right today- good, even. Except I'm getting anxious 'cause I can't figure out how to start writing again, ehehe. Um ( Read more... ) -
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I cut my leg the night before last because I was really worked up and wanted to hurt myself and wanted to see if it would help (it didn't ( Read more... ) -
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I'm really tired
I'm gonna go look shit up and try to have something to turn in tomorrow
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Thinking about death again. Was thinking about how if I don't get a job or something soon after I graduate I'll feel useless and like a leech, but I won't feel that way at Daddy's house because I know that's a temporary situation, and I was also thinking about how I can't keep staying in this house with the kid, and I thought, "If I move out, there ( Read more... ) -
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I've been anxious all day again because school and Aunt A. sent me a card for graduation and $25 but I don't know if I'm gonna graduate and I know I need to do work but I don't have the concentration to do it and I feel on edge and really tired and miserable and I almost cried in front of everyone again and went to my room and now I kinda just feel ( Read more... ) -
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Ermmm feeling better I guess I wonder if what gets me anxious is that I know she's not gonna answer right away and so I have all that time to wonder about what she thinks of me
Never mind now there's school anxiety hi
I'm gonna do the lines on Sho and Josh and then try to try to do my bibliographies and shit
