Munich ( Read more... )

"You cannot convince people to love you. This is an absolute rule. No one will ever give you love because you want him or her to give it. Real love moves freely in both directions. Don’t waste your time on anything else ( Read more... )

I was blessed with a work day today that went by very quickly. I woke up tired, wishing last night would just turn out to be a bad dream. But it wasn't a bad dream. I had really opened up the flood gates, and the verbal castigation, and the panicking, and the sad feelings on the phone with Stephen last night. For two hours. And I know he was ( Read more... )

I was having the strangest dream about him
It was about him being involved with someone else
If it was going to happen, it was the best possible night
I woke up wrapped in another him's strong arms
Against a warm chest, behind that, a strong, defined back
Feeling quite comfortable
I didn't let the dream bother me very long.

It's been two months, and I still love you. What an obnoxious feeling. This broken heart that keeps on loving you. My head hasn't been able to extract the love from my heart yet. It's been one year since I moved out of Greenville. Another obnoxious feeling. I wish I could say I've grown and progressed in a meaningful way in that one year but I just ( Read more... )

one unhealthy yet undeniable stream of thoughts kind of being replaced with another relatively unhealthy stream of thoughts... i don't own any walls to put up, i don't possess any weapons to guard myself with. never. i never have. i'm going to chalk it up to the fact i'm evolving now, hopefully, in the beginning stages of evolution to being someone ( Read more... )

with london in his crate for being bad for going through the trash ( Read more... )

pretending to listen to music because i can't actually bring myself to listen to real music ( Read more... )

what helps ( Read more... )

I thought Washington DC was exactly what I wanted. I thought getting this job at GWU was perfect beyond perfect. When my dad asked if I regretted taking the offer and if I thought that maybe something better would have come along, I thought he was absolutely insane for asking just a ridiculous question. But now I'm not sure it was entirely ( Read more... )