hmm well today i was like.. abnormaly happy haha surprise surprise?

so i think i`m going to be.. updating a wee bit less lately but i just have one thign to say:

i want freaking love.
i want some freaking ass.
i want to be wanted =] lol
so if you would care to "take me up on my offer" let me know wink wink hahah

*lindsey <\33

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1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint(inside joke) as to who you are.

stayed home from school again.
might not go to school tomorrow.. but for "different" reasons

i want you to want me. i need you to need me. i love you to love me. im begging you to beg me..*

stayed home from school today.. sore throat yeah

yeah i`ll "stop complaining" because i guess it just pisses everyone off to know my true feelings lol?

( kiss me goodbye )

you know what. fuck it i don`t even care anymore. i don`t do anything for myself it`s all for my friends or lack there of. whatver. seriously i can`t stand this. every freaking day i piss myself off or upset myself or make me want to cry. and i can`t take myself anymore. i can`t take it. i have lost any passion i ever had. i have lost my spirit ( Read more... )

last night went to the mall with jenna.mk.and pam. Omg =] fun times playing barbies.. meeting those guys ( Read more... )

i`m actually happy for a change.. a nicee change =]

well today was fun. school blahh then chrissys funnnesss.. fun times walking to the bus haha nd at your house with the amaazing chocolates! ahhh <33 blisssss then the chorus concert.. oh yeah woo hoo..i loved it ( Read more... )

well. i decided i don`t know what i want and no one does. ever. you may think you want something so bad but you will soon realize you don`t lol ( Read more... )

i`m okay.. to those who were worried
i`ll explain what happened later to you

i just have one thing to say: i hate this i really really do. i hate feeling this way. thinking these things. acting the way i do. i hate feeling like ive built up some kind of false world in my mind whre everyone hates me and everyone is fake and not knowing the fantasy from the reality. who can i believe but myself? so ofcourse i believe myself ( Read more... )

..tegan i haev to talk to you =[

-not deleting my lj.. just not updating anymore-

goodbye