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that goes on in my head always.
i'm gonna make a new one of these.
& delete this one.
i don't think anybody reads this so it doesn't really matter.
but its going to be all friends only.
because honestly, i'm not ready for you to see how i feel.

disappoint me isn't the right word, but its the first word that comes to mind. i feel like too many people are wasting their lives. thinking they're getting the easy way out because it pays good. that doesn't change the fact that it isn't a good thing. i just want to sit you down and ask you why? this is suicide. you think you're life is going to ( Read more... )

more and more i find myself wondering what happend to our old selves? for as long as i can remember i've wanted to be where i'm at. and now that i'm here, i want to leave. i want to get the fuck out and never, not for anything, turn around. and maybe when i say "you wouldn't understand" you already do. maybe we're all thinking the same thing. we ( Read more... )

if you haven't picked up the sweet escape by gwen stefani something is seriously wrong with you. the song yummy has to be the most amazing thing in the world. mmm pharrell. this is a more of "this is how i'm doing in non-emotional ways" update. went to the gym today. i'm determined to get back on track and go everyday like i did earlier this ( ( Read more... )

you're a slut. a whore. a hoe ( Read more... )

i am self incriminating. i can't believe i'm doing this (again). i am a horrible person ( Read more... )

every night before i go to bed i pray for better days. i pray for you (to be here with me). i pray that one day we can work up the nerve to say something to each other-instead of acting like we're five years old. i don't remember what its like to love. i feel like a newborn child. i fail at things to just say "i'm failing". everybody knows i'm ( Read more... )

i wish you could see yourself now. do you remember who you were? what you wanted to be? you're a different person on the internet. the new era of fame. everybody loves you. i loved you first. and yet, thats the same old story. its getting boring and i'm sick of telling it. i don't understand how we've both changed so much. i wish it was october of ( Read more... )

i cannot fucking belive you.
i really can't.

and you wonder why i never have a good birthday.
i can feel it starting.

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